I’ve recently recognized a very destructive pattern in my life. I’m easily leveled by difficulty. When it hits me, it can be catastrophic, and I run the real risk of nihilistic depression during which I let almost everything go — daily routines, procrastination, bad decision making, etc.
At some point I start finding my bearings and start getting my life organized again. That feels good and so I get manic about it, setting myself up for another crash.
I’m currently in that phase where I could easily turn manic. Trying to tell myself to slow the fuck down. Seems to be working.
Sound familiar to anyone?